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Yeah... my uncle passed away, early this morning. I was so upset, I didn't get to sleep all night, niether could my mum. I went to Joe's party today, though. That cheered me up, a lot. I have such good friends... I'm really lucky.
Laws
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| Don't you hate having a life? |
[11 Mar 2006|08:23pm] |
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I'm missing the internet. I'm missing my online friends. I'm missing obsessing over Johnny. I'm missing listening to Vanessa's music and watching her videos all the time. I miss having time to enjoy the things that make me happy and make me... me.
I've been seeing friends a lot lately, doing schoolwork a lot lately, and really... having a big outside life, lately. It's great, of course... I'm feeling thankful, too. I had a period where I hardly ever left my room! I thought I'd never miss that, but I do. I miss Johnny and Vanessa so much. I just have no time anymore. I NEVER thought this would happen. I was always the one without a life, and every other Vanessa and Johnny fan did. This is sounds very pathetic and idiotic, I know... but I really can't help it. I want to have time to myself to "be" with my obsessions and admirations.
*Sigh* I am crying! Gah. How pathetic. How stupid. This entry is stupid. LOL Sorry. I must sound so odd.
I'm having one of those "Johnny, just take me away!" moments. LOL They always seem pathetic and silly when they're not happening to you.. so, feel free to laugh. LOL
Anyways. You get the point. I need cheering up. It's kind'a hard, though, since it's late at night. Late at night is always a depressing time, espeically when you're alone.
Well, on the happier side of things, I'm having a birthday party on the 25th and 26th of March! Inviting 10 of my closest friends over for a slumber party! It shall be awesome. Our house is really big, so it will be so... so AWESOME! We're sleeping in the rumpus room slash basement... first storie... thingy. It's a huge room where we'll put our sleeping bags on the floor, set up a table for food, put the drinks and stuff in the mini fridge/freezer, and and... there's also and exit to the backyard, and there's a laundry and bathroom! It will be really fantastic. We won't even have to leave the room and I won't have to be embaressed my the parentals! LOL
That's only one room in my house.... which we like, never use. It may need to be cleaned up... hmmm... well anyways, I'm excited for my party. Something to look forward too.
I'm thinking of having some Bliss lyrics on a simple white cake or something. I'd love that. =)
Okay. That kinda cheered me up! LOL But I'm still feeling pretty icky.
Thanks for reading my ramblings.
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| I'm back! |
[07 Mar 2006|06:37am] |
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Oh yes! It feels good. LOL It was so sucky... the computer got here a bit over a week later than it was supposed to! Everyone probably thought I had died or something, lol.
I got my hair cut! It's short, like shoulder-length, and it's layered. I love it.
We watched CATCF and Edward Scissorhands in class last week! Haha. School rules. (Something I thought I'd never say..)
There is one bad thing, that I have talked about a bit on the net, but I don't feel like it right now, that happebned to me while my comp was getting fixed. It makes me kinda sad thinking about it. I'm sure a lot of you know anyways.
I haven't anything else to say right now! I'm just trying to catch up on everything and excuse my absences at forums, etc.
Tootals.
Oh! And guess what? My birthday is on the 11th of April! SQUEEE! 15!
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[20 Feb 2006|04:46am] |
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Okay, the weekend sucked, and the next week will suck even more. My computer broke down on Friday and it won't be fixed for at least a week. I also have a bad virus and I can't go to school until next monday! I'm doubting survival. LOL
I'll miss all of my online friends, so much! Hopefully the week will go really quickly, and my computer and I will get better. LOL
I'm at a net cafe right now, near my mum's work. I'm just here for about half an hour. I felt I needed to inform my online communities and friends of my forth, and upcoming absences.
I also, would like to apologise about the lack of commenting, for the next week! When I get back I'll read and comment on as many entries as I can. I have a great little tight-knit of friends at LJ and I'm interested in their entries. ^_^
Until next week,
Laura.
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[16 Feb 2006|04:11pm] |
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Well, I'm way better, today, emotionally. I went to school, went to English and researched Edward Scissorhands, and then went home. LOL That sounds awful... but I ironically felt really sick. Still do. Just feel nauseated all the time and stuffs. Blehhh.
I just made the BEST graphic! It's very, very simple, but it works. I can't show it to you though... it's part of a surprise at SweetParadis.com. You can see it...s ...them, lol, in about a week or so, when it opens, all re-designededed. I'm really looking forward to it.
I just made this icon. I really like it. May make more later... other themes. I'm feeling Johnny-ish, lol. It's Elyse Sewell. She inspired my username! She's such a little nymph... a fawn... a... something like that, lol. She should have won cycle one, but huzzah to Adrian:
My header STILL won't come up! I feel so unfinished, lol. If I don't have a header.. I just can't put up a matching F.O. sign! So my journal doesn't seem complete yet. But I'm sure someone will help me solve the problem sooooon. *Nudges*
I'm gonna finish up on my personal icon journal, soon. When I do... I won't put icons up straight away, so don't get impatient. LOL
Pretty sucky entry. Nothing much to say.
Tata.
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[15 Feb 2006|11:53pm] |
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I really should go to bed, but I'm just in one of those really upset/depressed moods. This song doesn't help.... lol, but I love it. It was our (ex-bf and I) song. I'm over him... it's been ages... okay years... shut up, lol, but this just makes me emotional. He's not the reason it's making me emotional, which is weird... LOL even though he has a new gf and he's making me jealous with her. Has been all week. (He grabbed her and started practically making out with her, while staring at me, on Valentines. I laughed... but it kinda hurt.) Gah. Confusing mood.
I may as well put the reasons I'm in this mood, in point form, since when I'm upset... I can't seem to type full paragraphs and explainations, unless they're reasonably short:
*I just want to get out of this country. I want to so badly. I feel SO isolated and alone. Just... god, let me go to Paris for a day! I'll get off the plane, sniff the air, and head back home. Lol. I'm serious. I'm just so desperate. Anywhere but here! SADFGHJREFKDEKEWIEWEWYEWQYTWENDSJDSI! LOL!
*Johnny. Gosh damn it. I feel like I haven't exactly been... paying attention to him lately because I'm so busy, and I miss him. I just miss thinking about him 24/7. It was obsessive... but it comforted me. I even just miss talking to a fellow fan about him on msn for hours on end. Just admiring his amazingness, with someone. Having my own little movie marathon... etc. Now I've got just too many other things on my mind. Just lately. Too much to do and think about. I mean... I'm always comparing people to him, wondering if he would say this, do that, etc etc, like we all do... but it's calmed down so much. It's not the same *Sigh* To give him a hug, man. Right now. I'd also just love to meet him, you know? I get like this sometimes. I just have the biggest, freakin' urge to meet him and tell him how I feel about him, how he's effected my life in so many amazing ways, etc. Or even just to see him in person. To sense and see, in a way, his aura. Would be amazing.
*This is a selfish reason to be upset... but you don't know how much I wanna go. I want to go to Paris in January 2007, to see Vanessa in concert at the Olympia. I would give anything to go. But I'm not allowed, and even if I save up the money myself... which I won't, Mum will probably think that it's too much trouble, etc. Yes I'll try the whole "I'll be responsible and do everything myself!" thing. But does that ever really work? It got me a puppy once, LOL, but we all go through that phase growing up, and I needed a dog. And he's now 3! Love him to death. LOL Anyways, I'll try saving, and then if I do, tell mum that I'm going with people, which I would be. Meeting friends in Paris, staying with friends (all over 18, of course! All from VP.info, and I'd let mum talk to them on the phone, etc.) Mum wouldn't be able to afford to come, probably. Even if I can afford it. (Pssshffft)
I won't succeed saving, though. And.. and mum wouldn't help me a long, just a little bit. She's totally broke. I'm gonna ask for help/permission/support to go, for my birthday, and if I can't have that, I just want to get out of this country. America, the UK, anywhere in France, anywhere! Just somewhere for god's sake! If I can't have either of those things, I don't want anything for my birthday. NOTHING. It would just be a waste because objects aren't truely what I desire. Man... Au Zenith is not a good thing to watch when I want to see Vanessa in concert, but can't. LOL She has the best energy, live. She loves and respects her fans so much, and vice-versa. An amazing woman. Same with Johnny! Haha, gosh. No, Laura. Don't even think about reading fan encounters. NO! NOOOO. BAD.
*I've gotta go to the doctors about something and I'm bloody freaking out. That's as far as I'll go with that one. LOL
There. Selfish rant over. No more me, me, me, tonight. I feel so guilty when I'm in this mood. Maybe I'll write a letter to Vivian. Yep. I'll do that and then go to bed. *Nods excesivly*
P.S. Excuse grammer, spelling, puncuation, etc, mistakes, in this entry. You know how it is when you type, and it all comes from emotions and everything just spills onto the page.
Sweet dreams.
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[15 Feb 2006|09:32pm] |
My header image won't come up... I've checked, double-checked, checked again, triple checked, checked one more time, and COMFIRMED TO YOU... RIGHT NOW, that everything is correct and in it's place, in the code, in the override box... now why does the code delete itself as soon as I put it in and press save, and why doesn't the header come up on my journal? Could someone please post the code for me, just incase I'm doing something wrong? And could someone give me tips for putting it in (with my header URL, of course... lol, everyone seems to think that I may have forgotten that, but no. duh.) etc etc?
Thanks. Much appreciated. It seems I've lost my LJ touch, which was once there and ripe.
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| We're not sheep. |
[15 Feb 2006|05:39pm] |
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Well, children, today we watched Edward Scissorhands in class! LOL! How amazingness is that?! If you don't already know (been raving over all the J and V forums) we get to study the one, and only, Tim Burton, this semester!!! I'm soooo gonna get an A. LOL, I've been educating the teacher! This website, miss. This actor, miss. This composer, miss. He grew up here, miss. Aaaand etc. LOL
I felt like crying at the end of Eddy, but I didn't lol... how embaressment.
Mia and I just went down town. Pretty ordininininary, but we did come across some CATCF colouring-in, books! Bwahaha! Really nice pictures of Mr. Wonka of the front... like WOW.
Anyways, still a bit busy since it's the middle of the school week, but I look forward to being able to get on the net for long periods of time, on the weekend. (I'm not doing anything! Yay! Well, that may change come sat, but I doubt it.)
There's so much I wanna do! I miss the summer hols! Lol. Oh well. PSP and LJ and... well, all my other sites, lol, will be there for me on sat.
Just about to have dinner. I betta get creaming soda with it. I have a craving.
Tootals! xox
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[14 Feb 2006|07:33am] |
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| Your Personality Is |
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
I always get the same one... LOL
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[14 Feb 2006|07:05am] |
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Variations Sur le Meme T'Aime - Vanessa Paradis |
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...How depressing. Valentines Day. No, not really. I personally stopped being offended by the pointless holiday, last year. I'm not jealous of people with boyfriends. I'm 15. What would the point of a boyfriend be? We'd be together for at most, a month, and then I'd be pointlessly sad for a month... and then I'd get over it and move on. That really doesn't seem logical to me, but... everyone has their opinions. I think I'll just wait until I'm an adult to enjoy Valentines Day. Call me miss-goodie-goodie, but I think I'm thinking in a mature way. (Hahahaha)
I'm just straightening my hair, before school. It's 7am over here.
Gah. I was so upset last night. On America's Next Top Model, cycle 1 (shut up) they went to Paris. That killed me. They were crying tears of joy and everything! Lol... remind me not to watch Au Zenith until (if I ever) get over this. You don't know how much I want to go to this thing. (I think Vanfans will know what I'm talking about. A certain concert in a certain city in a certain... year? The last bit didn't make sense, but, go figuire. I never make any.)
Anyways. I betta get back to this important job of mine. I just felt that my journal looked rather boring with one of those "First Entry! Oh my god!" ...entries.
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[13 Feb 2006|09:41pm] |
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My first entry in my new journal! How awesome-o.
I used to have a *sucky* journal; laurathedreamer (which I would delete, but I have some nice memories in there), but I got sick of LJ for a while (I know! How awful!) and then when I started getting cravings, I created this one.
I'm still working on the layout (including userpic...s LOL) so bare with me.
I'm working on an icon journal, as well! When it's done, I'll put it as my website. Yep yep.
Well, I have nothing much to say, right now. It's 9:45, I stayed home today because of family problem... ohs, and I'm in the mood for making graphics! I'll probably work on my header... maybe... it'll probably suck though and then I won't be able to make one for ages until I get my inspiration back and then and then MY LIFE WILL BE OVER!
Just another reminder, that my journal is open to everyone, for the moment. So ADD ME if you have similar interests to mine, or you just think that I'm a nice chicka, before I become F.O. Haha... chicka. I suck.
Thanks! <3
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